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Saturday, April 3, 2010

Damn it,It's been a real long while since i last when clubbing,Around two months,Omfg.The last club i went was some 'mama' club,and from then on i swear on my bladdy fucking self never to enter a 'mama' club again.So after a "long" time, last nite i went to this club with my friends,... It was my friend, Rupi's 21st n she made me promise her that i wld tag along whereever she went, got fucking sucked in to a bloody indian club again n bumped into many faces i wld not have wanted to meet.

U wan to noe y i bladdy hate indian clubs.... Here is y-

Experience 1- As i danced to the beats of nelly furtado ''Promiscuous''[it was a goddamn tamil remix] with an attractive hot,Real hot indian guy i'd met in the club that night,i mouthed the lyrics and looked playfully into his eyes.As he snaked his hands up my top,he said ''So,this is your song,huh?''I smiled,removed his hand,and said,''I'm going home alone tonight.''

Lesson for the boys :Watch what you say when you have your hand in a girl's top.

Experience 2 -I was dancing with my friend,Roopan,Jeevan And Kesh.So i abandoned them half-way to get myself another tequila shot.While i got back i had to squeeze my way throught the goddamn packed dancefloor,which supposely this bladdy group of indian arses around six of them,bladdy black bastards started to surround me.So i scream, as in practically shouting in a nice manner to them to move,And guess what,two of these bastards started grindin Rina.God save these people!
I was so goddamn annoyed , i managed to push them away and they still had the urge to ask for my number.Argh.
Lesson learnt - Never step into a 'indian' club again

A year ago, partied hard.

I know I said that before...but I suppose I feel the need to say it again. partied with the fraternity guys and sorority girls; I partied with damn well anyone and everyone. And I didn't think much of it. I didn't think it was dangerous or naive. I didn't think I was stupid. I didn't think anyone would hurt me.

I had thought wrong.

A year of hardcore- partying came and went: drinking where I couldn't always remember all the details; the drinking where I ended up praying to the porcelain god.

In Jan, I clubbed with my ex bf. We'll call him Ron. I had partied with before, so when he told me about a party that night, I told him I would most definitely be there.We showed up to this run down club by hongkong street.. It was a secluded area on a lot of land (from what I can recall). We were impressed and,surprised, surprised because there were only 20 people in the house:. It wasn't much of a party. It was just us. But, I was naive.I thought, "No big deal!" and away we went, drinking the night away. My ex came up to me with a glass of Gin Tonic(spiked by my own bf). I was so wasted that I could hardly walk. That much I can remember.
And to be honest, I only remember bits and pieces of that night...even now.

I remember being on the outside deck with Ron(Memory check: my ex bf).

I remember laying on the chaise lounge with him.

I remember we were kissing...and then it became more than that.

I remember saying no...a lot.

I remember him saying, "it's fine" every time I tried to push him off me.

I remember I couldn't get him off me.

I remember crying.

I remember yelling.

I remember screaming.

I remember his strength was too much for me. He was athletic and A LOT stronger than I was. I was also drunk. Being that I could hardly walk, it's pretty obvious I wasn't lucid enough to gather my strength to get him off me.

I remember waking up with a heavy head.

I remember demanding my ex to explain his behavior.

I remember hiding in the bathroom with the phone calling my friend Roopan.I remember telling him everything.

I remember him yelling at me. (I realized later he was mad at Ron, not me. At the time, I was horrified and ashamed. I was in shock.)

I remember seeing an monkey.

I remember calling my friend Roopan when I got home. When he asked how I was, I asked him why he was asking me that. I told him that I was fine; I was just so wasted I had no idea what I was talking about. It took me awhile to convince him of this. I didn't understand why. I believed what I was saying.

The brain does funny things. I blocked out this memory for over a year, resuming my life just as before: I continued to party hard and "mack" (making out) with guys, never going any further than that - always stopping before it got to sex. Yes, you read correctly.

I am not sure what my feelings would be today if I saw him. I wonder if he feels guilty. I remember hearing his "apology" through a girl in my sorority: "I feel really bad about what happened, but she was on the bed." For the record, I was ASLEEP ON TOP OF THE BED. And if I remember correctly, I didn't have a "Fuck me" sign on my forehead. Oh yea, and saying "NO" with tears streaming down my face wasn't a clue?
What a dumbass.

Writing this in my drunken stupor..oh yeah...this much i remember.. cos my heart feels heavy for watever that has happened. I hate men!! MEN=SEX=BASTARDS! oOOOPS,equation wrong...ahhhh who cares!!

bid goodbye and fly away... 7:22 PM

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